Books I Want to Read, Part #16

  1. Hidden by Tomas Mournian
  2. A Widow’s Story: A Memoir by Joyce Carol Oates
  3. Foxfire: Confessions of a Girl Gang by Joyce Carol Oates
  4. I’ll Take You There: A Novel by Joyce Carol Oates
  5. Two or Three Things I Forgot to Tell You by Joyce Carol Oates
  6. The Sacrifice: A Novel by Joyce Carol Oates
  7. The Man Without a Shadow: A Novel by Joyce Carol Oates
  8. The Lost Landscape: A Writer’s Coming of Age by Joyce Carol Oates
  9. The Faith of a Writer: Life, Craft, Art by Joyce Carol Oates
  10. Nemesis by Joyce Carol Oates writing as Rosamund Smith
  11. Zen and the Art of Writing by Ray Bradbury
  12. Boulevard by Jim Grimsley
  13. The Double Bind by Chris Bohjalian
  14. Close Your Eyes, Hold Hands by Chris Bohjalian
  15. Spoonbenders: A Novel by Daryl Gregory
  16. Reincarnation Blues by Michael Poure
  17. Lincoln in the Bardo by George Saunders
  18. Extreme Makeover: A Novel by Dan Wells
  19. Tinkers by Paul Harding
  20. Enon by Paul Harding
  21. A Box of Matches by Nicholson Baker
  22. The White Bone: A Novel by Barbara Gowdy
  23. Heather, the Totality by Matthew Weiner
  24. We’ll Fly Away by Bryan Bliss
  25. My Name is Venus Black by Heather Lloyd
  26. Little Big Love by Katie Regan
  27. Standard Deviation: A Novel by Katherine Heiny
  28. The Impossible Fortress by Jason Rekulak
  29. We Are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson
  30. Made You Up by Francesca Zappia
  31. The Incest Diary by Anonymous
  32. Watch Your Mouth: A Novel by Daniel Handler
  33. Whisper by Lynette Noni
  34. The Bone People: A Novel by Keri Hulme
  35. The Marbled Swarm by Dennis Cooper
  36. God Jr. by Dennis Cooper
  37. Peach by Emma Glass
  38. The Book of Essie: A Novel by Meghan MacLean Weir
  39. The Last Warner Woman by Kei Miller
  40. The Lunatic by Anthony C. Winkler
  41. The Retreat by Mark Edwards
  42. The Kiss Quotient by Helen Hoang
  43. Little Birds by Anais Nin
  44. Delta of Venus by Anais Nin
  45. House of Incest by Anais Nin
  46. Little and Lion by Brandy Colbert
  47. Starfish by Akemi Dawn Bowman
  48. You’re Welcome, Universe by Whitney Gardner
  49. Edith’s Diary by Patricia Highsmith
  50. American Dreams by Sapphire
  51. Black Wings and Blind Angels: Poems by Sapphire
  52. A Wild Ride Up in the Cupboards by Ann Bauer
  53. Kids Like Us by Hilary Reyl
  54. Carry the Ocean by Heidi Cullinan
  55. The Arrangement: A Novel by Sarah Dunn
  56. The Nao of Brown by Glyn Dillon
  57. Half a Heart by Karen McQuestion
  58. The Forgotten Ones: A Novel by Steena Holmes
  59. In Watermelon Sugar by Richard Brautigan
  60. You Were Never Really Here by Jonathan Ames
  61. Mrs. Caliban by Rachel Ingalls

Books I Want to Read; Part #15

  1. You’re You by Metto Bach
  2. George by Alex Gino
  3. Lily and Dunkin by Donna Gephart
  4. The Goldfish Boy by Lisa Thompson
  5. Words on Bathroom Walls by Julie Walton
  6. In Sight of Stars: A Novel by Gae Polisner
  7. I Stop Somewhere by T.E. Carter
  8. The Disturbed Girl’s Dictionary by Nonieqa Ramos
  9. When My Heart Joins the Thousand by A.J. Steiger
  10. Olivay by Deborah Reed
  11. Gorilla, My Love by Toni Cade Bambara
  12. The Sugar Mother by Elizabeth Jolley
  13. The Well by Elizabeth Jolley
  14. My Father’s Moon by Elizabeth Jolley
  15. Corregidora by Gayl Jones
  16. Eva’s Man by Gayl Jones
  17. Into the River by Ted Dawe
  18. I Kill Giants by Joe Kelly, illustrated by J.M. Ken Miimura
  19. The Things You Find in Rockpools by Gregg Dunnett
  20. The Refrigerator Monologues by Catherynne M. Valente, illustrated by Annie Wu
  21. Lock In: A Novel of the Near Future by John Scalzi
  22. Witch in the Lighthouse by Azalea Forrest
  23. Burro Genius: A Memoir by Victor Villasenor
  24. My Absolute Darling by Gabriel Tallent
  25. The Heart’s Invisible Furies : A Novel by John Boyne
  26. The Boy in the Striped Pajamas by John Boyne
  27. The Year of Ice by Brian Malloy
  28. The Boys on the Rock by John Fox
  29. Recent History: A Novel by Anthony Giardina
  30. A Boy’s Own Story: A Novel by Edmund White
  31. The Beautiful Room is Empty: A Novel by Edmund White
  32. The Farewell Symphony by Edmund White
  33. Numbers by John Rechy
  34. Please Don’t Go Before I Get Better by Madison Kuhn
  35. The Crimson Labyrinth by Yusuke Kishi
  36. Ring (Ring Series, Book 1) by Koji Suzuki
  37. The Punch Escrow by Tal M. Klein
  38. Hot Milk by Deborah Levy
  39. Imagine Me Gone by Adam Haslett
  40. The Birds of Opulence by Crystal Wilkinson
  41. Where All the Light Tends to Go by David Joy
  42. Autism in Heels: The Untold Story of a Female Life on the Spectrum by Jennifer O’Toole
  43. Dragonfly: A Daughter’s Emergence from Autism by Lori Ashley Taylor
  44. Ketchup is My Favorite Vegetable: A Family Grows Up With Autism by Liane Kupferberg Carter
  45. My Autistic Awakening: Unlocking the Potential for a Life Well Lived by Rachael Lee Harris
  46. Atypical: Life With Asperger’s in 20 1/3 Chapters by Jesse A. Saperstein
  47. My Lovely Wife in  the Psych Ward: A Memoir by Mark Lukach
  48. This Close to Happy: A Reckoning With Depression by Daphne Merkin
  49. An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness by Kay Redfield Jamison
  50. The Center Cannot Hold: My Journey Through Madness by Elyn R. Saks
  51. Divided Minds: Twin Sisters and Their Journey Through Schizophrenia by Pamela Spiro Wagner and Carolyn Spiro
  52. Passing for Normal: A Memoir of Compulsion by Amy S. Wilensky
  53. Raising Blaze: A Mother and Son’s Long, Strange Journey Into Autism by Debra Ginsberg
  54. Skin Game: A Memoir by Caroline Kettlewell
  55. Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness by William Styron

Books I Want to Read; Part #14

  1. The Night Child by Anna Quinn
  2. Not Even Wrong: A Father’s Journey Into the Lost History of Autism by Paul Collins
  3. The Dead House by Billy O’Callaghan
  4. The Clarity by Keith Thomas
  5. Holding Up the Universe by Jennifer Niven
  6. I Am, I Am, I Am: Seventeen Brushes With Death by Maggie O’Farrell
  7. Self-Portrait With Boy by Rachel Lyon
  8. Green: A Novel by Sam Graham-Felson
  9. An Invisible Sign of My Own by Aimee Bender
  10. How to Build a Girl by Caitlyn Moran
  11. So Glad to Meet You by Lisa Super
  12. Dietland by Sarai Walker
  13. Every Day by David Levithan
  14. Get in My Head: Sara’s Story by SM Holland
  15. Get in My Head: Jared’s Story by SM Holland
  16. Sexy by Joyce Carol Oates
  17. In Wolves’ Clothing by Greg Levin
  18. Sick to Death by Greg Levin
  19. Blackbirds by Chuck Wendig
  20. Atlanta Burns by Chuck Wendig
  21. The Savior’s Champion by Jenna Moreci
  22. Quackery: A Brief History of the Worst Ways to Cure Everything by Lydia Kang and Nate Pederson
  23. Crimes of the Father by Thomas Keneally
  24. Kissing the Witch: Old Tales in New Skins by Emma Donoghue
  25. Buffering: Unshared Tales of a Life Fully Loaded by Hannah Hart
  26. How We Roll by Natasha Friend
  27. The Beauty that Remains by Ashley Woodfolk
  28. Starr Bright Will With You Soon by Joyce Carol Oates writing as Rosamund Smith
  29. The Barrens: A Novel of Suspense by Joyce Carol Oates writing as Rosamund Smith
  30. The Lives of the Twins by Joyce Carol Oates writing as Rosamund Smith
  31. The Triumph of the Spider Monkey by Joyce Carol Oates
  32. Sex Object: A Memoir by Jessica Valenti
  33. The Girl Who Fell From the Sky by Heidi W. Durrow
  34. The Rules of Attraction by Bret Easton Ellis
  35. The Day of the Owl by Leonardo Sciasca
  36. Happy Birthday Jesus by Ronald L. Ruiz
  37. The Art of Being Normal: A Novel by Lisa Williamson
  38. Symptoms of Being Human by Jeff Garvin
  39. The Dangerous Art of Blending In by Angelo Surmelis
  40. Eggshells by Caitriona Lally
  41. Himself: A Novel by Jess Kidd
  42. Everything You Want Me to Be by Mindy Mejia
  43. Ghost Story by Peter Straub
  44. Spanky by Christopher Fowler
  45. Magic by William Goldman
  46. Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Kate Clifford Larson
  47. Our Socially Awkward Marriage: Tales from an Asperger’s Relationship by Tom Peters and Linda Peters
  48. Everyday Asperger’s by Samantha Graft
  49. Twirling Naked in the Streets and No One Noticed: Growing Up With Undiagnosed Autism by Jeannie Davide-Rivera
  50. My Secret Garden: Women’s Sexual Fantasies by Nancy Friday


A-Z Reading Challenge 2018

Here’s a link if you’d like to participate, basically you try to read a book in 2018 for each letter of the alphabet. 🙂



All the Dirty Parts by Daniel Handler


Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates




Ellen Foster by Kaye Gibbons


A Fair Maiden by Joyce Carol Oates


Ginny Moon by Benjamin Ludwig


The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams


I Am Not a Serial Killer by Dan Wells





Me and You by Niccolo Ammaniti



The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman





Smile by Roddy Doyle




A Virtuous Woman by Kaye Gibbons


Winter Birds by Jim Grimsley




Zombie by Joyce Carol Oates


Creativity and Bipolar Disorder

Yesterday I told my job counselor that I had written an almost 400 page manuscript in less than a month. She seemed impressed until I quickly told her, “I have Bipolar Disorder. I was just riding the high.” Why did I say that? Well, I think it’s because I feel more comfortable letting my illness take credit for my creative intensity than me. To be honest, I’m not proud of anything I’ve ever done. My life has been made up of a series of bad judgement calls and mistakes, and I don’t think I have anything to be proud of. My psychiatrist was concerned about hypergraphia because of how fast I was filling up journals, and she wanted to make sure the things inside my journals made sense.

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